Sometimes people grow apart

I know that gaining and loosing friends is all a part of life. I don't have the same friends I did 10 years ago. I have some old and some new. People get older, more mature, they move on with their lives and sometimes people just simply grow apart. What gets to me is when you spend 18 years being someone's friend and then one day it all ends. All of a sudden you have no idea who that person is anymore and they obviously don't know who you are either. When you are friends with someone you accept them for who they are. Their faults as well as everything else. You don't punish them for being who they are and they don't make you feel guilty for things that happened in the past. In my opinion, when you forgive someone you have to let it go completely. You can't forgive someone for something and then next time you get angry, bring that situation up and punish them for it. That shows the difference between mature and immature. All I know is that recently I have seen someone for who they really are and because of what I have seen we will NEVER be friends again. She has said some things to me that I wouldn't even say to my enemy and last year we were friends. We were friends for a long time. We shared alot of secrets and she pretty much knew everything about me. It's makes me very cautious when picking my friends. I don't know who to trust and who will stab me in the back when the opportunity arises.

you know who you are.

I am sorry for what happened in the past. I accepted you for who you were, I'm dissapointed you couldn't do the same for me. It sucks that you will not be there on my wedding day (but then again you haven't really been there for me lately anyways). I am people in my life that I love and that love me. I don't need you or your fake friendship. If you keep treating people the way you have been you will be old and lonely and it will be your own damn fault.

My most important job

Well, obviously at this point in my life, my most important job is being a mother.

This includes getting up with a sick child in the middle of the night, wiping stinky butts, cleaning dirty faces, bandaging skinned knees, giving comfort whenever he needs it etc. When I got pregnant, I didn't know what I was in for. I had no idea what was involved in taking care of a infant. I can remember laying on the bathroom floor crying a number of times because he just wouldn't stop crying or he wouldn't go to sleep or he wouldn't eat enough. There was a time where I went into a deep depression. I didn't know what I was doing and I didn't have any help. I don't think that me and mike were ready to be parents AT ALL. We were both still really immature. I didn't think he helped me enough and he thought that I didn't do enough. The first year is the hardest,I think. But we made it through, alive and together. I think that says alot about our relationship. We were forced to work as a team and as soon as we realized that, our lives got much easier. We had to get on the same page to make sure that OUR son was taken care of and given the best life possible full of love and caring.

No one is perfect, we all make mistakes. I still make mistakes. There are still times when I just have to walk away because I get really stressed out. I am proud to say that my child is healthy, very happy child, so I guess I didn't do THAT bad.

Next time I am going to do things differently. I learned the hard way, what to do and what not to do.

A summary of my life up to this point

Well, my friend Amy has been blogging for the past few months and I really enjoy reading her posts, so I thought I would give this a try.

Well, a quick summary of me. I am 23 in a relationship with an amazing guy in which I am blessed with an amazing son. We met a few years ago by mutual friends. I know this may sound a little cheasy, but I knew he was special from the moment I met him. We has an instant connection and our relationship took off from there.

Our relationship then takes us all the way to Florida to begin our lives. After being there for about 6 months life threw a curveball and we had our son, Ryan. He was the best surprise that we ever recieved. He came into our lives and changed us and and our relationship. He brought us together. We were now a team making sure that we gave him the best life possible.





It was because of Ryan that Mike decided to make a major life changing decision. He wanted to go back to school to fufill his life-long dream of becoming a pilot. We were tired of living paycheck to paycheck and counting every penny that we had. It was hard, really hard. Mike was working as a mechanic. Some weeks he would bring home $1000 and some weeks it would $300. I was staying at home and obviously not working. Also, we lived 3000 miles away from ANY of our family. We had NO help.

Well that kinda brings us where we are now. Ryan is almost a year and a half. We are back in California. Well, actually Mike is in Arizona (he has been since jan) studying to be a pilot. He is really busy studying and flying and studying some more. As for me, I work part time and am busy planning our wedding, which will take place on SEPTEMBER 21ST, 2008. I am very very very excited to become Mrs. Seth-Hunter and start our lives together OFFICIALLY as a family. I know, we kinda did things backwards, but it works for us :)